Long days...

While it has only been 4 days, it had seemed like a very long time..

Of course it did not helped that En has gone back to is extremely irritable self over the weekend and has been extremely trying on all our nerves, with his constant harassing of Xuan Xuan, and whining and crying.

That kept me rather busy and irritable..
Then there are tonnes of tasks to look into: shopping for grocery, having the leaking tap fixed, getting new mattress for Xuan Xuan etc ..

Over the weekend, in between my bouts of screaming at En and Xuan, I managed to bring the kids to the Botanic Gardens to feed fish and tortoises, which amused the boys much.. I even managed to have a facial while the boys are taking their afternoon nap. So all in all quite efficient, but somehow, it feels empty still.

By yesterday evening, the boys seemed back to normalcy.. even En is back to his amicable self. I think it is the medication for his flu making him sleepy and irritable and difficult.

And as planned, I also started reading to Xuan Xuan before his naptime. Hubby said that we ought to start Xuan on the reading habit –he used to just change into his pyjamas and cuddle up to his milk bottle and will drop off to sleep on his own..

So I started reading to him on Sunday after changing into his pyjamas, and yesterday, he really enjoyed the Sliding Monkey book, it ended up as a bit of over stimulation as he really got into locating the missing monkey, so much so that he was crying out ‘Key- key” in his sleep. We are still trying to get Xuan to speak, but last evening he amazed us when he suddenly held up his water bottle and said “No more”. Really, so much for 一鸣惊人

And after reading to Xuan, En and I watched the Superband contest and then I read him his books and then put him to bed.

Then it is the loneliness again. And it does not help that our laptop adaptor is damaged, so we can’t even skype much. So I need to figure out how to have the adaptor fixed.

We used to enjoy putting the kids to bed early, so that we have time for ourselves. Be it the movies, or watching DVDs, or going to the bookshop, or even walking momo or going out for an ice cream.

I kinda never realize we spend quite a lot of time together, despite all the errands we need to do, and the time spent with the kids. Now that I am alone, then I realize there are a lot of things that we do together, which seems meaningless to be done alone.

Increasingly, it also seemed like we are worlds apart.
One cannot really empathise with what the other is doing miles away.
And when one needs help, the other feels helpless miles away as well..
Complete - is when we are together. I am really beginning to feel it.